Hello world. Shoot me please.

Urgh. Once again I am using this blog to vent frequent daily frustrations in hope that it eases my mind... If only a little.

Have you ever had a conversation with someone that goes something like this?

You: Hey! How are you? :)
Person: Good. u?
You: Good! What have you been up to?
Person: nm u?
You: well I did this this and this, do you wanna hang out later?
Person: k.
...And the conversation tends to go downhill from there, you are all active in the conversation and the other person is responding either with one word answers, not at all, or replying with stuff that seems emotionless. And don't give me that "There are no emotions in words" bullsh*t. There are emotions in books after all!
When I get conversations like that from someone I care about/talk to frequently I worry that I have done something wrong, or they are just randomly pissed off at me. They may not me, but that is the feeling I get, and so I stress out.

Conversations like that have been happening a lot to me lately, from multiple people. I dunno, it may be because of the hormones from the pill, that I have been really stressed out lately... But it's really starting to get to me. I guess I'm just feeling rather alone at the moment.

Sorry for the depressing blog entry.

Burlesque

Well, yesterday I went and saw Burlesque! It is an AWESOME movie. I probably just say that because I love the style and the music, it had an awesome Cabaret feel to it, it also seemed kinda like Coyote Ugly, which is another movie I love!
Yeah, I'm pretty much a sucker for corsets and music :)

I also got the first season of Spice & Wolf on dvd :) I have to say though, the Japanese version sounds a lot better... But that's probably because I originally watched it in Japanese. I watched it when the episodes came out once a month! :D so when I watch it now it seems to go a lot faster than what I remember it to be XD

Spice & Wolf is pretty much about a wolf god named Holo and a merchant called Kraft Lawrence travelling together, Holo comes along because Lawrence promised her that he would take her to the north. It's set in what seems a lot like Europe in the Middle Ages, a large amount of people are following the church, and fewer are following the Pagan Gods. So if Holo is found she will pretty much be exorcised to "get the devil out of her"
It's a funny and interesting story, it's fairly different too, so if you are interested in anime and manga, I'd suggest having a look at it :)

So yeah, my internet was down AGAIN today. That was terribly annoying >_< so I didn't get to post anything. I feel like drawing women in corsets at the moment, so I might give that a shot :)

Oh! Also, I got new books for school, along with highlighters and pens... And a new 2B mechanical pencil! :D yay!

I'm also watching the second season of The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya season 2 :)
For those who don't know about that series, it's fairly hard to explain without giving away the entire plot, but I'll do the best I can:
It's based around an average guy called Kyon, there is nothing really special about him, he doesn't believe in anything, upon entering North High he meets Haruhi Suzumiya, who introduces herself as not being interested in normal human beings, which, naturally picks her out as being the weird one. A few days later Kyon starts talking to her and eventually they become something like friends. Haruhi is having trouble picking a club to join, so Kyon suggests that she make her own club... And thus the SOS brigade is born! :D
It's pretty funny and really good, check it out! :)

SUNBURN. Again.

Fuuuuu! Feck feck feck feck!

I got sunburnt again >_< I need to start learning the meaning of sunscreen. Unfortunately, I forget all the time. And so, my shoulders are burnt! Once again!! Gah! I am going to have such a patchy tan these holidays!!

Anyway, for the past 2 1/2 days I have been at S's house :) Which involved a marathon of watching Being Human! :D for those who don't know what it is here is the storyline:

It's the story of a Vampire (Mitchell), Werewolf (George) and a ghost (Annie) living in the one house and there is this guy building this vampire army and They are all like "Won't you join us? :)" to Mitchell, and Mitchell is all "No! Imma clean vampire now!" and George is all "I dun wanna be a werewolf" and then he is all "ze wolfie is a part of me" and yeah, he isn't very interesting and wears funny glasses.

Well, at least thats what I think o_o. And Annie is trying to find a way to "go to the light" so to speak :) But in this case its a door, and then she is all "Noooooo I dun wanna go into the door! D:"

Annie is also very very pretty :)
See?

That's a piccie of her and Mitchell (: Mah two fave characters!

We watched almost all of the two seasons that they have so far made :) yeah. It's pretty awesome.
...Oh yeah, and they are all trying to be human, if you didn't get that :)

Anyway. At night S stole the blanket heaps D: But I found out that if you kick her (gently) in the shin she releases a bit of blanket :3 yay! And on the way home she drove me... I wanted to wear a helmet, but unfortunately there was no helmet avaliable. Damn.

Anyway, all in all it was a good 3 days. I got to talk to my AMAZINGLY AWESOME GIRLFRIEND That I love very very much  on the phone again! And I sent her an awesome prezzie :3
And it got to spend 2 1/2 days with the awesome S :)

The Coin Knows All

So a couple of days ago I pretty much had a mental breakdown (as those who read my blog would know) anyway, I ran off to my friend M's house and stayed there for a while. It's really good being with her, we can talk about ANYTHING with each other. Even stuff I don't feel comfortable talking to my girlfriend about (If you are reading this D, yes, me and B are in a relationship! :D Pretend to not know anything as we planned to tell you together) Anyhoo, so we talked heaps, and I got several worries that were bothering me to the point of insanity off my chest :)

We also watched Black Butler or Kuroshitsuji as you all like to call it. I LOVED the first season and now understand all the yaoi fanart...Though I have to admit, the second season SUCKED BIG TIME! First of all theres that blonde kid and that random butler... Which just CREEPED ME OUT. Man there was some creepy sh*t happening there. That kid was major sadistic! That and Ciel and Sebastian's relationship took one hell of a turn for the worst. Bah! I should have never let myself watch that evil second season.

Now, After watching the evil second season of Kuroshitsuji M and myself went upstairs and started asking questions to her lucky coin... It was all fun and games until it got creepy, it started answering EVERY SINGLE QUESTION correctly. Which was rather f*cked up =\ ANYWAY we started asking questions about God and life and all that stuff, I'm not sure if it was our attitude or whatever. But it was pretty freaky. Here is what the coin told us:

God does exist. God has no sex. God is a supreme being. Christianity is worshiping the right God. There is no such thing as hate, love or truth. Divine Beauty does not exist. God and the Devil are the same. there is such a thing as hell.

And on a funnier note!:

I am God and the Devil, I am just too young to receive the title just yet. I will become a journalist... Though I will not be rich, nor famous (pfft.) 

In other words. The coin is a lie.

Oh! And I got my hair cut short :) Its the anime tomboy/feminine guy hairstyle! I think it suits me heaps :D

If any of you live in Melbourne and want your hair cut short check out Colour Your Soul. It's pretty awesome. Expensive. But she is the only hairdresser I know that willingly chops my hair off and does a really good job of it :)

thoughts 1

You know, I've been feeling like I am maturing mentally a lot now. I'm starting to handle things better on my own. All these changes I'll admit scare me more than a little, I also feel like I'm becoming boring... Though that may be because I haven't gone out much and as such don't really have anything interesting to talk about. I think I am growing up like this so quickly because in the past month I have needed it, I've faced someone horrible and for the first time in a long time haven't let myself believe I am the one who should be apologizing, I've had to provide for my brother and me (having the house to yourself is awesome.) I've had to re bury Kimba and Marvin, I've been doing the best I can to help at least 10 different friends sort out their problems, I've made my room look like some sort of office... Which is kinda creepy. I guess I have just become mentally stronger and better able to deal with things on my own... I guess like I was before I got all fucked up in the head. The thought kind of makes me happy. Hopefully I'm not too mature though! I still have at least 2 years left of childhood. Haha!

...So I guess this is a bit of a journey? I can't wait to see what becomes of it.

Still need a job. Thinking of applying at Grill'd.

Oh God.

I have just seen something I have never ever wanted to see.

I had two cats in the past, who as they do, died. They weren't at a vet when they died so we didn't get them cremated or anything like that, we buried them in the backyard with a small plum tree on top of it.

Now as you would probably know, there has been a lot of rain in Melbourne lately, a lot of heavy rain. And as you would know, rain washes soil away. I hadn't realized how much soil, until I went out and saw some of my cat Kimba's bones sticking out from the ground.

I don't know how to deal with this.

OMFG AN UPDATE

1st. ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ALICE?!

Well... My room is almost clean, the walls are being covered with random crap... And yeah...

My brain has been very much weird today. One minute I think too much, the next minute I'm stupid then the next I'm talking about twilight. It must be the pills. 

But yeah, I don't have much to say, I've got some serious artists block going on! I look at the pencil and sketchpad and my hands feel so weak! D: It's a bit of a worry. 

Also.

Avenue Q is awesome!!!

I should probably take something to fix my brain today... It doesn't seem to be working at all! D:

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Oh! And I'm all better :)

Yay!

Uh... Yeah, that is all!

~LovelyLesbian